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The Plight of the Fat Girl #blogactionday #bad2014 #inequality #oct16

I figured that this year I would write out my Blog Action Day post in advance, because the last time I participated, my post was less than stellar. In addition, this year's topic is something near and dear to my heart, so I really wanted the post to be something special. This post has been sitting for quite a while, waiting to be posted.

This year's topic for Blog Action Day is Inequality. Inequality is something that has been close to to me for a while. From the moment I became aware of the world around me, I've always thought we would all be better off if we treated everyone the same. I once wrote a (Writer's Block post) about polygamy and said that as long as all parties are consenting, who does it hurt?

But even with all that, inequality hits closer to home than even I imagined. It hits me when I walk into a clothing store, it hits me when I open up Vogue or Cosmo or Redbook, it hits me when I check Pinterest for cute photo ideas for the inevitable moments where I'm taking engagement, wedding, or maternity pictures.

In every store ad, every magazine, every cute photoshoot that goes viral, the people are thin. They're thin and cute and look good in a wedding dress or have the cute "basketball in the shirt" baby bump. Dresses don't flow out on me, and I'll barely have a bump, if at all. I don't think I'll see a cute viral image with a woman that looks like me.

And that is just the tip of the iceberg for me. There's also the "fat tax," the fact of life that a piece of clothing will cost $10 more in a size 20 than it does in a size 12. There's the look of contempt when I sit down to eat at a restaurant, especially when alone.

It's the fact that clothing companies think the only thing I want to go swimming in is a bulky swim dress. It's that I should never be seen in shorts, or a tank top. ("Why do you wanna display those fat arms/legs oh my God!")

It's the fact that people assume I am not worthy of love. Or sex. News flash: I have both. But I'm not "supposed to." I'm just supposed to live my life alone, probably with cats (unless, of course, I do decide to lose the weight. Then I'll be attractive.)

It's the people "concern trolling" and telling me I'll be much healthier if I just lose a little (or a lot, I have heard both) weight. Excuse you, I am most definitely healthy, thank you very much. I don't need you worrying about me, okay? You do you.

It's the fact that this is so perpetuated that for the longest time... I believed it. I believed that I wasn't beautiful, that I wasn't sexy, that I needed to conform in order to be either. I've been very fortunate that I was able to over it and feel beautiful in my own skin, love handles and all, but there are still people who are stuck in the cycle.

I have made many leaps of progress in my self-image, but there is still a long way to go. I no longer have to order clothing online (unless I want to) to find something in my size (I had to do that with my prom dress ten years ago. The mall trip leading up to that point was a nightmare.). I no longer think I have to drop pounds to feel sexy. But that was something I did on my own, society didn't help me much. We need to get to a point where every woman, regardless of size (or color or level of femininity) can feel comfortable in her own skin.

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On Writing

I haven't been writing much lately. I've been trying, but there have been things preventing me from having the time to sit and write. My poor writing blog has been woefully neglected. I wrote a few things here and there, mostly for fanfic exchanges, and I do have a couple WIPs from my Martins universe I need to finish and type up. Maybe I'll do that this week, I dunno.

(As an aside, Aleria is a real place. Whodathunk it?)

I've been wanting to write more non-fiction, but I don't know how to start. My Blog Action Day post is going to read a bit like a memoir essay, which is going to be good, I guess. I signed up for Medium, but I haven't posted anything yet, for obvious reasons. Sometimes I think writing non-fiction is so much harder than writing fiction.

I've wanted to rebel as part of NaNoWriMo and write a non-fiction piece one of these years (this year is not gonna be that year, FTR. I will be writing fiction), but I think what's throwing me off is all the research involved if you're gonna write less than a short essay (and even then those can require citations).

What's the catch to writing non-fiction? Anyone know?
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This Is Not The Right Moment to Write This Post

So I'm halfway through a bottle of 90 proof Peppermint Schnapps at the time of starting this post, and there will be more drinking as this post goes on. So this is a drunk post.

Alright, so what has Erika been doing since her last post?

Well, a lot of things. First we went to Disneyland and California Adventure (a year ago tomorrow, actually!), and that was super fun! I have pictures from that too:

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Then in November, we got the worst call we've ever had: Tommy's dad died of a heart attack at the age of 48. (To put things in perspective, he's only 3 and a half months older than my mom. And I couldn't imagine losing my mom anytime soon.) So we ended up having to go back to Arizona for the funeral. We essentially never left.

We made it back to Denver for a few months, before Tommy lost his job and that caused us to go back to Tucson (his mom was selling us a mobile home). So now we're living back home which is nice because we're both close to our families again, but we miss the city life of Denver and hope to go back some time.

It hasn't been so bad, because I ended up landing my best job ever. It's a call center, which says a lot about the jobs I've had in the past. But putting the call center aspect aside (and boy, could I tell you stories), the fact that I have a guaranteed 40 hours, benefits (I actually have health, vision and dental insurance) and the ability to earn PTO and sick time (though I've already used all of it because of reasons) is more than I've ever had before. Which is nice.

I haven't been totally absent from the blogosphere though. I've been devoting a lot of my time to The Polished Fangirl, which if you haven't checked it out before I recommend checking it out. I have a post that I plan to write this weekend that will be kinda cool (my first review of a product I got as a press sample, so I'm super excited about it.)

So that's what I've been up to. I'm hoping to keep this blog more active (which I attempted last year but as you can see, it was a massive fail, we'll see what this year brings. I'm participating in Blog Action Day next month, so that's something.)

It's crazy what comes out once alcohol comes into play. I'd been sitting on this post for days. The lowered inhibitions must have helped. So, yeah.
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31 Day Blog Challenge: Days 06-09

I am winning at this whole posting everyday thing. Not.

Day 06: Your Last Random Act of Kindness
Wow, since I work in retail I seemingly do RAOKs all the time, so this is a hard one to figure out.

Day 07: What's Your Dream Job?
I'd love to run my own business, actually. Either selling nail polish or hand/nail care kits, or nail art tools. Something related to that.

Day 08: Biggest Pet Peeve.
WHEN PEOPLE MISSPELL MY NAME.  By far. It's not Erica, and it's not Ericka, and it's definitely not Arica or Eryka or any other spelling you can come up with. It's Erika!

(Note: nothing wrong with people who spell their names those ways, it's just not how I spell mine.)

Day 09: What's on Your Bucket List?
I want to travel the world. I want to get married. I want to have a family, with two kids, a dog, and a cat.
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31 Day Blog Challenge Days 04 & 05

Missed yesterday, oops! So today here's a two-for-one!

Day 04: Best Childhood Memory
Wow, most of my memories I would consider my "best" memories happened when I was in my mid/late teens (*NSYNC at the Rose Bowl, Backstreet Boys at Glen Helen, Pagosa Springs), but I guess those would count when they were at ages 14-16 and I'm 27 now.

Day 05: Favorite Movies You Never Get Sick of Watching
The Social Network: By far! I could never get tired of this one, ever!
Scott Pilgrim vs. The World: The comics are far better, but the movie has a certain charm about it that I love
The Lion King: a classic
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31 Day Blog Challenge Day 02

Day 02: Favorite Quotes
I'll flat out steal these from my "quotes" section on Facebook, because yes:

"Live life to the fullest for the future is sacred" - Nick Carter
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"If you run out of dreams in your life, it isn't worth living." - Nick Carter
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"If he had an accent, I woulda picked him." - Brian Littrell (about Nick Carter)
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"I think Brian's hot." - Nick Carter (when asked if he'd be a Backstreet fan were he not in the group)
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31 Day Blog Challenge

I found a challenge/meme on the Internets, and it's one I'm pretty sure I haven't done yet, so I'm going to attempt it now!


(Ignore that it says March 2013 on it, it was originally made to be done in March, and I wish I had discovered it then!)

Day 01: Self-Portrait and Five Random Facts About Yourself

(A front facing camera pic, forgive me.)

Five random facts:

1. Not a major secret, but I'm left-handed.
2. Up until June 2012, I lived no more than 10 minutes away from my parents. Now, I'm 16 hours away and it's killing me.
3. I'm a recent lover of all things girly, especially nail polish! I even run a blog for it! (As well as blogs for my cross stitch and writing, I'm a bit obsessed with blogs.)
4. My boyfriend (yes, boyfriend!) is teaching me to cook.
5. I go through phases with this journal/blog/whatever. Sometimes I'm meh about it, and only use the account for communities. Sometimes I get into phases of "I r srs blogger, this r srs blog." This is turning out to be one of those later times.
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It's that time again

It's the time where my life is NaNoWriMo and NaNoWriMo is my life.

 

This year I'm delving into a genre I know little about: chick lit. My novel is titled The Geeky Girl's Guide to Having an Awesome Wedding and it's pretty much what it says on the tin. (Fun fact: This is the first year my novel's title has been more than two words.) It has decided to be part two of a trilogy, though whether or not the other two books get written has yet to be determined. (Hell, it took me eight years to write anything in my Alerian Chronicles verse, and I haven't actually written The Alerian Chronicles) So, we'll see.

Dolphins!

Wow, it's been a while.

And I'm sorry. Life's been crazy hectic as of late.

As anyone who has me added on just about every other social network knows, I've moved to Colorado and have been there for two months. We're finally getting settled so I can take a breather to update. I miss my family terribly (they're all still in Tucson), but being able to spend every day with the man I love, to wake up next to him every morning, has eased the blow just a little bit. We mesh so well together it's crazy. We've already gotten into a groove together and it's awesome. We're not in a permanent place just yet, but we're working toward that and the best part is that we're happy.

I also managed to get a job pretty quickly, even though it's only part time and that's been a adjustment (my last two jobs were full time, one in management and the other almost in management). I'm a register jockey at Burlington Coat Factory, and I must admit, the retail thing is much easier to handle at times than the fast food thing (and bonus, I can work with my nail polish on! Score!)

In other news, the whole being settled thing means I'm hoping to focus back onto my writing and other creative pursuits. I've started by updating and reviving my writing blog, and I've started a nail polish/nail art blog.

Well, that's what's been up with me. Yeah.
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A long overdue update

Okie dokie first of all, how did it get to be a week until Christmas? Where did this year go? I still need to do my shopping (I have to wait until I get paid next week.) I'm also slacking on all of the fics, but I'll get those done too, I always do.

Been working like a dog. Pulled two damn near 40 hour weeks, but it will make for a suhweet check on Friday. We've been short staffed, hence the extra hours. We also have this new girl, while I'm on the subject of work, who won't last much longer. She's rude, she's cocky, and she doesn't listen. Yeah.

I've been someone's girlfriend for eleven and a half months! Tommy and I are still going strong and it blows my mind. We've been long distance since July (him in Denver, me in Tucson), but it doesn't seem like it's deterred us in anyway (in fact I have plans, like definite plans, to move up there next summer. With a house and a dog and a cat and him and me. OMFG.) This is like, a dream I don't want to wake up from. We've thrown out the big m-word, and I just. I don't know. I can't with how amazing he is. I've been counting down the days cause he'll be down for Christmas, and by then it'll have been damn near six months since we last saw each other. Excited doesn't begin to cover how I feel.

*looks over tags to check what she planned to discuss* Oh, right! I've gotten the ball rolling to get back into school (about time, I say). First step is paying off my loans from the first time I went back, then I can reapply and get grants. Yay grants! Also, when I go back, it'll be straight into the bachelor's program, cause my AA concentration isn't offered anymore. Oh well, what can you do?

And lastly, I won my first NaNoWriMo with a week to spare! So excited still. Mind blown. Am I doing it next year? Fuck yeah.

So yeah, that's all with me. I will remember to keep updated.

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Soul Sister

So here I am. 5:35pm. On what would be your birthday. And it hurts. It hurts like fucking hell.

I don't stop thinking about you. I don't think I ever could. We had something special, something I don't think I'll ever be able to recreate.

It's the little things that make me think of you. Jordan tweeting. Nick tweeting. NKOTBSB. Finding a fic I had started for you and now regret never fucking finishing. Your IM accounts are still on my buddy list. Always will be. I can't bring myself to take them off.

There's so much I wish you were around for, and I know it sounds like I'm dwelling, but fuck it's only the second birthday of yours we've (I've) had without you. I know it'll get easier someday, and for the most part it has, but it's days like today and April 30th that will always be hard.

Anyway, happy birthday Sara and I hope that wherever you are it's treating you good, with all the hot boy band men you can have.

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gandolforf's brother, Eric Lee Bark, pictured above, was last seen in Maquoketa, IA, on November 4, 2011. He gave no word to his family as to where he was going.

Eric was born December 19, 1987. He is 6'2" and weighs approximately 170 pounds. He has hazel eyes and brown hair, and there is a 6" scar on the outside of his left arm, near his elbow. The last time he was seen, he was wearing a dark blue hoodie and blue jeans. His car is also missing; it's a green Jimmy with rust marks.

If you see him, please contact gandolforf at gandolforf@gmail.com, on Twitter at gandolforf, on Tumblr at http://gandolforf.tumblr.com/, or let me know. I will let A. know about anything as soon as I hear. You can also contact the Maquoketa Police Department at (563) 652-2468.

There is a Facebook post here; please pass it on if you can.

This post is public. Feel free to pass it on, in part or full, if you so choose.

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Meet Kandâja


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Who is Kandâja, you might ask? She is my plot bunny. Her name is an Esperanto name that means "made of candy" (totally fitting given her sparkles and bright colors), which has nothing to do with writing until you learn than that is also the name of the community where I keep track of my stuff forrunaway_tales. Then it all makes sense.

 

Kandâja is going to help me get through NaNoWriMo and beyond.

 

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#safespace After Hours

Featuring steelneko, myself (Aeiouna), and a guest appearance by custardpringle (Snuggie).

Backstory: My NaNoWriMo 2011 novel is about a girl trying to write a novel for NaNoWriMo (so meta!). So, I've been scouring the Internet for a plot generator so I have the story my MC is writing (not entirely necessary, of course, as the majority of the plot involves her writing process, but I at least wanted it in the back of my head if need be).

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Signal boosting via gandolforf

One of my friends is being fucked over hard by SSI/SSDI and in danger of getting their medical coverage, which is desperately needed, cut off.

A few points from subluxate:

So this week, I received a notice that my Medicare premium payment is due. For, basically, July 1 through December 31.

This totals $807.80.

Right now, the last payment I received was in May, around May 3. That's four months without payments. Four months of asking my family and friends and complete strangers for help paying rent and bills. Four months that total $2,791.20 that Social Security has not sent me.

I'm not asking, at this time, for donations. I am, however, asking for advice. What should my next step be? Who should I contact? Do I need to email my state representative's office, too, about the Medicaid issue? Should I find a news outlet? What do I do?


ENTIRE POST with more information on what's happening and what they've done so far. Please read this, please signal boost this, please check out help_kelly and offer your fic, graphics, or anything (there's a miscellaneous post too). Please bid, too, if you can! A few dollars can really help. There's a post on Tumblr for reblogging here, and a Tweet to RT here.
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Writer's Block: Jumped the shark

Which television show continues to get worse every season and should just get cancelled already?


You know, I would love to be able to answer this question, but all the TV I watch is either a) Asian and is meant to run for only one season anyway (Kisarazu Cat's Eye, Coffee Prince), or b) gets canned before it even gets a chance to jump the shark.

For further evidence of point B, I give you every TV show I've ever watched enough to call myself a legit fan of it:

1. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers - While this show did run for a while, it fell into the same pattern of unconnected seasons with a new cast that it's Japanese counterpart, Super Sentai, has, so really couldn't jump the shark. And it was canceled, and didn't run last year. The only reason there was a new season this year was that Haim/Saban (the original showrunners) said "Fuck this shit, Disney, we're taking it back."
2. The Loop - Canceled after the second season, when Fox decided to turn it from its original concept of a twenty-something trying to balance his professional life in a pretty high profile position and his personal life as a, well, twenty-something who wants to act like a twenty-something into a wannabe ripoff of The Office (making fans of the first season - myself included - go, "What the ever loving fuck Fox, what are you doing?")
3. Reaper - Canceled after the second season, yet again (after the second season was reduced and only happened after a huge fan campaign, because The CW felt it wasn't a good fit for the direction the network was going (i.e. - Reality TV and melodramatic teen dramas like Gossip Girl and 90210. Exceptions being Supernatural and Smallville, but the latter is already on its last season and the former probably nearing the chopping block anyway)
4. The Listener - NBC canned its airing partway into the first season, due to lack of ratings due to lack of promotion (they promoted the premiere and... that was it?!). The second season aired a year and a half after the first season, and I really doubt there's gonna be a third one.
5. Glory Daze - Canceled at the end of the first season. TBS claimed low ratings, and critics claimed this was due to the fact that it was trite, cliché. Also, I think it had a lot to do with the target audience having been born in the mid 80's opposed to having gone to college in the mid 80's.
6. Breaking In - Canceled after the first season. To be fair, I have yet to pick this one up, but I was planning it, and I still plan to, maybe. Another victim of Fox's stupidity.
7. Eureka - Just announced a week and a half ago that next season is the last. Again, I think this has to do with Sci-Fi (oh, excuse me, Syfy) wanting to take their network in a "different" direction that has nothing to do with scripted TV.

The one exception to this could be Entourage, but it is currently in its final season. (Wiki claims that the eighth season was meant to be the last one all along, so this isn't considered a cancellation, but IDK. I still find it odd the show ends as soon as I pick it up.)

On the bright side, this means I have plenty of time to catch up with the canons, since they're either closed, or will be closed soon.